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L is for Life….​

     Life is too precious to stop living, to hide away, to have self-pity and to have self-doubt.  Yes - I stopped living my life after the birthfather went to jail, Yes - I stopped living my life after the birth, Yes - I stopped living my life while fighting the contempted adoption and… Continue reading L is for Life….​

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I is for Isolation….

     Throughout my pregnancy and post-pregnancy, I kept myself in isolation. I went one complete year without saying a word to anyone that was not in my everyday life or within my inner circle.      I was three months along in my pregnancy on Easter of 2014 when I decided to break one… Continue reading I is for Isolation….

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F is for Fallon​

Fallon was born in May 2017 almost two and a half year after B was born.  I from the time B was born till Fallon was born never opened my heart to an infant because I was afraid to love a baby.  That all changed when I held her for the first time, from that… Continue reading F is for Fallon​

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E is for​ Empty….

     Empty is what I have felt for three years because there is a part of my life and my heart that is not with me like Austin and Chloe.  I never thought I would have this empty feeling on most days but it just sneaks the hell up,  The empty only goes away… Continue reading E is for​ Empty….

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B is for Balance….

     BALANCE - “Happiness is not a matter of intensity but of balance, order, rhythm and harmony.” ~Thomas Merton      Balance equals bullshit because for years I have not been standing upright.  Even though I am goal driven with aspirations of achieving more and hopes of improving my life so that my children… Continue reading B is for Balance….

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An Open Conversation with Austin

Sophocles has said' “Sons are the anchors of a mother's life."  I could not agree more with this as Austin has been by my side through everything; pregnancy with his sister, divorce from his father, few breakups, pregnancy with Little B, the adoption process, college classes, my grief process after Little B voluntary termination of… Continue reading An Open Conversation with Austin