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E is for​ Empty….

     Empty is what I have felt for three years because there is a part of my life and my heart that is not with me like Austin and Chloe.  I never thought I would have this empty feeling on most days but it just sneaks the hell up,  The empty only goes away when I receive an update from one of his adoptive parents but then it comes back within a few hours, sometimes days and sometimes weeks, it just depends.  He is happy, taken care of, has the world at his fingertip and this all makes me so blessed that he has this because I choose life but I am still empty.

    I remind myself that I am blessed to have chosen adoption for him and that is an amazing toddler. He is happy, taken care of, has the world at his fingertip and most of all I am still in his life but that damn empty feeling just keeps coming back.  When will it ever go away and when will it just become normal?  It never will go away and it will never become normal………

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